I have been sick for over a year and a half, and it has been an adventure. It has been one of the hardest seasons of my life, and yet also the one in which I have grown the most. It has been something God has used to really shape me and mold me in many big and little ways. I recently started a journal entry of mine something like this:
‘Sickness does not define me… But wait, it has!’
God has definitely used the sickness to mold, shape, and define me and who I am. But it is not my identity. It is not who I am. Who I am is an eternal daughter of God to Whom this season of sickness is but a passing shadow in the vast span of eternity. The things in our life are often what God uses to shape us, and that is okay. It is good and healthy. However we must not let the circumstance become who we are. No matter what your situation is, good or bad, it doesn’t change who you are as a child of God if you’ve accepted Christ as your savior. You are an ambassador of the royal family to which you belong. I am not Sara, the sick girl. Rather, I’m Sara, the child of God. If I constantly think of myself falsely as ‘Sara the sick girl,’ it will be so easy to become depressed and stuck in the mindset that sickness is who I am and who I will always be. God is so much bigger than that! The sickness is only the tool that he has used, the fire that refines the silver.
In all this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that the proven genuineness of your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed. (1 Peter 1:6-7 NIV)
When we abide in God as who we are, we will not crumble when trials come. But God will be able to use them to refine us… we won’t have to be broken first. This is true even when everything’s going right. If we depend on the good circumstances we are in to provide our faith and joy, when the storms come, as they always do, we will be broken. The love and joy that comes from God, however, can never be broken. (1 Corinthians 13:13)
Your Sister in Christ,